I am 100% a planner.
I have something on my mind, and that’s the way it needs to be. Don’t even think about throwing me a curve ball.
As some of you may know, we have been trying to sell our house to move to a smaller community. We have been listed for 8 months.
I had everything planned out to a T because I thought that we would sell very quickly. I spent hours on pinterest doing everything there was to ensure a “quick sale.” We finished our basement, we re-painted the ENTIRE house a mutual gray and removed all our photos and clutter.
We were going to move to Devon and I had my kids both registered for pre-school and kindergarten, in the mornings at the same time.
I would have 2 hours to myself, three times a week! With that time I was going to focus my energy on bettering myself. I had a yoga/meditation plan figured out, and I also planned on taking more photography courses and working on my business.
We had a lot of things that were dependent on us selling our home this year. We were going to pay our vehicles off, get rid of our line of credit, spend the summer camping, and watch my children establish long-lasting friendships with kids they would continue to go to school with. And that’s just the tip of the iceberg.
I grew up with the same 10 kids in my class. My daughter has been to three different schools already which means she has made three different sets of friends. All she wants is to be with her old friends and not make any new friends. It breaks me heart, and I want nothing more than my kids to be in a smaller, tight-knit community.
I’m really struggling with the fact that I had this year planned out so perfectly and nothing is going the way that I wanted.
My youngest missed out on all the preschool registrations, so he’s now on wait lists. My daughter is in afternoon kindergarten, which is a nightmare for me. I’m even starting to miss all of our family pictures that used to be on the walls. We are basically living in a hotel with how clean we leave it because of possible showings.
I held back on doing a lot of things this spring/summer because I thought we would sell our house and be moving and that would complicate things.
There are so many more things that aren’t going the way that I had planned, and I tend to get downright bitchy about it.
On the other hand, I still have so many things to be thankful for, and I really need to focus my energy on those things right now.
- I’m thankful for the times my kids don’t stop talking and are acting crazy, because it means they are healthy and happy
- I’m thankful for the never-ending pile of laundry, because it means I have people I care about near by
- I’m thankful for the parking spot at the end of the lot, because it means I can walk
- I’m thankful for the head-aches my kids cause, because it means I can hear
- I’m thankful for all the yard work, and house maintenance, because it means I have a home
- I’m thankful for the sink full of dishes, because it means I have hot running water
- I’m thankful for that tight pair of pants, because it means I have food in my belly
- I’m thankful for my stretch marks, because it means I grew life
- I’m thankful for my huge feet, because it means I will get where I need to be
- I’m thankful for my anxiety, because it means I’m cautious and will be there for my family
- I’m thankful for the freezing cold nights, because it means I have heat
- I’m thankful for the 8 years my husband worked out-of-town, because it means he’s now home every night
- I’m thankful for all the disagreements we have with family members, because it means they love us
- I’m thankful for every red light or traffic jam, because it means I have more time to belt out my song
- I’m thankful for the fruit flies we get every year, because it means we have access to fresh produce
- I’m thankful for living in the city, because it means I have an amazing yoga studio minutes from my door
- I’m thankful for the cold I have, because it means my body is strong enough to fight it
- And last but not least, I am thankful for apples new screen time tracking, because it means my husband gets to do the supper dishes.
I win pretty much everyday🙊
I keep telling myself “everything happens for a reason.” Some weeks are good, and some weeks are bad. There has got to be some higher purpose for us and reason why we are still in the city. As much as we both want to be out, maybe there is still something that we need to experience or accomplish before it will be our time leave.